MOO…My Own Observation 4/2/10
As a life coach I support people as they pursue their dreams and create a life they are fulfilled in living. I witness their process of laboring a dream or idea and courageously throwing themselves into transition; a place of fear, excitement, inspiration and doubt. This place of unknown is where magic happens, as long as we are open to it, and THERE lays the key.
It dawned on me that I am smack dab in the middle of such a place and depending on my mood, the weather or how loud my inner critic is on any given day, I may be more open to the magic- or not. And then it dawned on me that perhaps writing about this experience will allow more openness, more curiosity about what is possible, and who knows, MAYBE someone will read it and find it helpful or if nothing else, humorous…
2 ½ years I moved to a small town on the West Coast of Ireland. This was a life long dream that I was able to manifest thanks to several opportunities lining up and me jumping (more like launching myself) into the unknown. People say that I was “So Courageous” and I suppose I was, but really, I was propelled to do it. Something deep inside me kept driving me to take the next step, KNOWING that this was the time really- go for it. I had NO idea where I would live or what I would do, I just KNEW that It would all be fine. I had more than my share of hurdles just before I left and even so, this deep place inside kept saying “It’s all going to be fine, it already is.”
Today I find myself in the same place of the unknown and yet all the familiar feelings of uncertainty, curiosity, fear and the deep seeded “Knowing” “that It’s all going to be fine” are showing up. Like one big Welcome Home party… You see, I moved back to the Bay Area 4 months ago having no real idea of where I was going to live, or what I was going to do (no, you didn’t read the same paragraph over) and yet trusting this place of knowing has enabled me to pursue opportunities with curiosity and openness like I had when I moved to Ireland. It is this deeper, inner, knowing that I believe we all share and when we tap into it and listen to it it will put us on the path we are meant to be on, or true life’s purpose. It’s easy to ignore this place, we are living in uncertain times and are bombarded with news of doom and gloom so it’s easy to say things are tough, “it’s too hard”, “I can’t”….but all that chatter comes from a closed, scared mind that buys into the story in order to keep us right were we are. It is not the place of the soul that KNOWS “It’s all going to be fine” and then curiously takes a step forward.
I see and hear lots of people who feel stuck in the “mind story” and yet when their inner wisdom is aloud to be heard they become lighter, inspired and open to possibilities and a new path. I liken it to clearing a path with the light strokes of a paint brush as opposed to hacking away at it with a machete. When I apply this idea to my scared, frustrated moments, it’s amazing what shows up…for instance, my computer crashed, I was sick and stressed out about what the hell was I doing with my life?! My mind was in a tailspin about money, getting ripped off by some computer person who KNOWS I don’t know anything about computers, blah, blah blah. I had to find a place to fix my computer but since I am new to the neighborhood I had NO IDEA where to start. SO, I decided to adopt my phrase and “sweep with the paintbrush instead of a chainsaw” and I drove around the neighborhood only to find a parking space INFRONT of a computer shop AND, when I got out of the car, a man offered me his parking validation that was good for a ½ hour! I decided that this was a good sign and proceeded into the computer shop where they were friendly, helpful, PAITENT (especially to someone who is computer illiterate and sick) and…CHEAP! Oh, and I forgot about the fun banter with another patron who ended up buying me a cup of coffee… Soooo, need I say more????
There are a million different ways to look at things, the proverbial glass half empty/half full; however; I KNOW that we all have this place inside of us that KNOWS “Everything is going to be fine” and by using a paintbrush instead of a machete to clear the path we open ourselves up to magic and the place where our dreams can become reality.
